Saturday, December 10, 2011 10:19 AM, CST
HELP ME BE STRONG -
Words from the song, Breath of Heaven by Amy Grant that we played at your 'internment service' yesterday - a prayer I found myself praying often throughout our time together here on earth. A prayer that was heard by our Father in Heaven and that was answered as my knees buckled, my stomach churned and my heart pounded with fear and uncertainty after learning that you had a "life threatening" condition, followed by several difficult and painful surgeries and procedures and illnesses and infections that continued to threaten your life.
Wishing I could spare you the pain and the agony of it all. Wishing I could spare myself. Coming to grips with the reality that life is indeed painful and coming to terms with God's truths. That in spite of my limitations, my weaknesses and my doubts, He is in control, He is infinitely good, He is faithful and He is able to do so much more than all that I can think or dream or imagine!
So grateful to know that you are now in His presence - completely healed and whole!! Reading this morning from the book, The Empty Chair, Handling Grief on Holidays and Special Occasions, the following prayer addressing God's limitless Grace spoke to me deeply and personally.
"We are not good at trusting, Father. We yearn for control and for power. We want to be strong. How can it be that you would make us weak? How can it be that you would remove from us what little semblance of control we might have? Why does this holiday seem to make my grief harder to bear? Make clear your strength, power and grace - not just on the occasion of my hurts and grief, but through them. Help me to see each day, either a routine day or a holiday as a day of grace from you. Help me to wait quietly for your direction. Quiet my confused heart. Make me diligent in doing all that I need to do to get through this grief, and impress on me again that your compassion never fails. Great is your faithfulness. Amen."
"Help me hold on"...... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rW2OBT-5qfc&feature=youtube
Words from the song, Breath of Heaven by Amy Grant that we played at your 'internment service' yesterday - a prayer I found myself praying often throughout our time together here on earth. A prayer that was heard by our Father in Heaven and that was answered as my knees buckled, my stomach churned and my heart pounded with fear and uncertainty after learning that you had a "life threatening" condition, followed by several difficult and painful surgeries and procedures and illnesses and infections that continued to threaten your life.
Wishing I could spare you the pain and the agony of it all. Wishing I could spare myself. Coming to grips with the reality that life is indeed painful and coming to terms with God's truths. That in spite of my limitations, my weaknesses and my doubts, He is in control, He is infinitely good, He is faithful and He is able to do so much more than all that I can think or dream or imagine!
So grateful to know that you are now in His presence - completely healed and whole!! Reading this morning from the book, The Empty Chair, Handling Grief on Holidays and Special Occasions, the following prayer addressing God's limitless Grace spoke to me deeply and personally.
"We are not good at trusting, Father. We yearn for control and for power. We want to be strong. How can it be that you would make us weak? How can it be that you would remove from us what little semblance of control we might have? Why does this holiday seem to make my grief harder to bear? Make clear your strength, power and grace - not just on the occasion of my hurts and grief, but through them. Help me to see each day, either a routine day or a holiday as a day of grace from you. Help me to wait quietly for your direction. Quiet my confused heart. Make me diligent in doing all that I need to do to get through this grief, and impress on me again that your compassion never fails. Great is your faithfulness. Amen."
"Help me hold on"...... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rW2OBT-5qfc&feature=youtube
