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Not only was it Mother's Day, but it also would have been my son's 25th birthday and to be honest, I was not looking forward to it! Since I didn't know how I would get through the day, without feelings of deep sadness and extreme sorrow. I debated about how I wanted to spend the day, but I knew in my heart that no matter what I did, it would be a difficult day.
I did my best to be open and honest with my friends asking for their prayers that God's sustaining grace would be very evident to me as it had been during the days immediately following my son's death.
My husband and I recently purchased a new RV and we have been preparing it for a road trip to visit my half sister in Tulsa in mid May, so we eventually decided to take the RV for a "dry run" and we located a camping site 60 miles south of the Twin Cities.
Saturday was sunny and warm and there was a biking/walking trail nearby. After a walk, we grilled and ate our evening meal outdoors on the picnic table where the thought occurred to me that Cullen, like me was always so happy when we were spending time outdoors. We always said that we would live outdoors 24/7 if we could. Thinking that Heaven must be like that - being outdoors all the time with perfect climate control! I also am quite hopeful that there is a heated swimming pool where we can swim to our hearts content because that was another one of our favorite activities.
Sunday morning, when I awoke the sun was shining, but I l could see dark clouds on the horizon and it wasn't long before I began to hear the raindrops on the roof. I imagined the raindrops to be teardrops from heaven for all the mothers in the world who have either lost a child or who are childless - God sharing in our suffering if you will.
What a personal God we serve!
Pam:
ReplyDeleteI belong to a worship team and play whatever instrument I am capable of playing, mostly drums, guitar and all of the percussion instruments. A lot of the time I just sing. This past Sunday was extremely spiritually rewarding. We are busy from 5:30 Sunday morning wake up time, to driving away from the church at about half past noon the opportunity to pray and meet people who are there to be fed, and also there to share with each of us in the Worship Team. Many times during the morning I thought of you and your husband, and how your walk with the lord has changed due to the loss of your son. I have to tell you it works on me a little each time I peek at your site. I really appreciate your bold ability to share with all of us your experience you had with your son, and also what the both of you are doing to help others by telling your story. There was a time on Sunday that I could feel your pain, and I prayed that our most precious Jesus to give the both of you something soft and sweet in life, as now you both deserve it. In Christ, even with the internet you can gain Christian Brothers and Sisters who through prayer connects us in a very spiritual way. I started to think about the story of the legion officer who came to Jesus and asked him to go to his house and heal his sick daughter, and just from his great faith his daughter was healed from afar. If you recall Jesus asked him what makes him sure I can heal you daughter, and the officer said if I tell my solders to go and they go as I am their charge, thus whatever I ask the Son Of Man to do he will do it. Jesus told his decibels, no not has anyone ever seen such great faith in all of Jerusalem. And so as it went they went to the officers home the daughter was coming around, and Jesus went to her and lifter her up and told her to walk, and they all celebrated such faith. This distance we all have with friends, and even new friends we many never meet in person, but surly will when we meet with Jesus. So you have, I am sure many Sisters and Brothers who are praying for the both of you from afar. May GOD bless your RV and keep you safe. May GOD open many new doors for you through your boldness.
Your Brother In Christ,
Tony Watson,